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I would greatly appreciate a reading if anyone feels inclined.  ANY words from you would be so helpful and I'll be sure to give feedback.  Thank you in advance!  (Here is what's been going on with me, if you'd like to know:  It has been a very stressful 1 and a 1/2 years for me.  I started out on a journey to find myself (having felt lost after staying home for 23 years birthing and raising my 4 babies; caring for house/home/sick husband) and ended up taking a turn that I'm still not sure if it was right or wrong.  A friend told me she'd fallen in love with me and we began a [very tumultuous] relationship.  I'm not sure if she lied about everything she said I was to her (soulmate; she had waited her whole life for me; proposed to me; talked of having a baby together, etc) or if she was telling the truth but was just too sick (physically/mentally/emotionally from eating disorders, alcohol abuse, etc) to manifest it.  I still love her more than anyone i've ever loved and would like nothing more than to share a life with her, but since that doesn't seem to be possible, I have come back home to my family.  Things are getting better here (for me & with my husband), but there are always thoughts of her, drawn back to her over and over... our connection felt so deep, primal, other-worldly...  did i do the right thing to let her go... is she really my soulmate... was she just placed in my path (or me in hers?) for me/her/us to advance/learn lessons...  or did i just make a BIG mistake?  very confused!  i do feel i'm growing spiritually and emotionally and am on a path to 'something'.  In the last 3 yrs I've seen a wolf, an eagle, and many turkey vultures, hawks, jack rabbits, mice, deer, frogs, snakes, and just a couple weeks ago 2 pigeons sitting where never seen them before! ~ heard cougar/mountain lion ~ had vivid dream of coyotes recently, and last night a dog that started friendly then started growling more and more visciously I feared it would attack and I found myself petting it's neck trying to calm it down and calling it Arielle, my girlfriend's name).