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Hi Red Dragon.

What happened to you in that Irish bar in Boston, -when you answered to somebody else's thoughts I can relate to ... know well what you are talking about.
But this Kundalini stuff .... no.

I think that the energy I am trying to point at here is like the Mongolian "Hiimori" i.e.."WindHorse" that referrers to a human's personal psychic power. A person with strong WindHorse usually developes psychic abilities etc. "WindHorse" energy can be increased i.e. one can "accumulate WindHorse". I am not Mongolian, so I shouldn't really be using their term, but that is like the closest image I can think of to try & explain ...

And I start very simply, the way I saw things as a child. At the age of 8 & 9, we had this very authoritarian teacher at school, who was trying to mold us into becoming very competitive etc. etc. etc. This I could not accept, and when f.e.x. we were asked to sing; -I sang, loudly ... but another song.... When we had skiing competitions, I'd inch my way on wards laying down to take naps in between inches. Etc. etc.
But the following year we had another teacher and this teacher was something else altogether. Bless her !!!! Her and I had this "silent communication" between us ...a "silent communion/connection" point in space, ( which I now call the "space-awareness-third-point"), which we were both attuned to, a bit like your Irish bar situation in Boston ... but feeling each others thoughts and emotions and intent without a word needing to be said. She was religious, but never preached it. She didn't put us in categories who comes first, who is above whom, but she really gave of herself to find out where each and every student's individual talents lied, encouraged us all equally, and taught us how all these individual talents were "enrichments for the whole". She was impeccable the way she served us. So I "entered into silence" and started "dancing" excelling in everything I did for the collective "space-center-point" we were both attuned to ....the point where all our hearts and minds can come together as one. In that way we became like witnesses for each others dance .... "other dimensionally". At first it was just 2 of us, awake in this way, but then a new student arrived to our class, and he recognized the situation & we recognized him. It was magical.

But what I hadn't realized, was that all that year I had been accumulating (light) energy..... till this "Force-Field" started to hover above me (dimensionally speaking). It was silent then, felt like high voltage power lines/cloud circling me. I thought: "Oh, that must be God". It was beckoning me to call it upon myself. But what would happen if i did, because I would be changed ... & how would I be able to relate to my parents then. My teacher was excellent, but The Force-Field had not come upon her .... so she would not be able to help me after wards either. Would I die ?

I could not resolve these problems. So I stopped "dancing" .... and I started to focus on things, that would make my energy-level come down, so that the "Force-Field" would go away. And it did.

At the age of 23, I came across this book which I couldn't put down for one minute, it was like I had been waiting for this book all my life, it was as though I like I so knew it already ... even though I had never heard of things it described in it. I can't remember what it said exactly, in this one part, but it was talking about personal power ... and how power would come over one ... or something. That one sentence was all I needed; -it was possible to let that "Force-Field" come upon one and start a new life with it ! I was in Visby at the time, Gotland, Sweden, working in a summer hotel. So one night I went to these high cliffs over the sea and opened up, now I was ready, "You called once, now I accept" !!!! I had a feeling that everything around me that night, all the trees, grass, and rocks were like "my witnesses".... and I like bloated up like a balloon. Can't explain. From then on I was "guided", - told where it would happen, (Copenhagen) ...synchronicities also started to happen, images, visions.....

So then a month after I had arrived to Copenhagen, -one night, alone in our "shared apartment" I heard a distant rumble, like a distant thunder or a jet-plane that caught my attention and I "shifted". By shifting I mean that I find, that in everyday life I sometimes experience these momentary shifts. Something catches my attention, and then it is as though part of my brain goes asleep ... and I "have a moment" with the perceived (other dimensionally). It is a highly suggestive ... like hypnotic state ... a moment of "dimensional communication".... which usually lasts for a few seconds ... and then I'm back. So I entered into this "dimensional communication" with the thunder sound ....and went with it into the silence.... and "time stopped". But then to my surprise the church bells started ringing, as they do in Copenhagen certain time during the night, so I was in time as well. But this time the sound of these bells, my mind/space and Eternity were one ... every atom in a blade of the grass would have known what that sound meant, there was no-where to hide from this "dimensional sound". I rushed to the window to see the bells, but I saw the cross. I had never been religious as such, but at the thought of being "a warrior for this "Eternal Essence", even if it meant death ...showed me my life thus far, in this "dimensional light" ... and I felt so ashamed. So I gave myself a solemn oath to dedicate the rest of my life for "The Essence".

Then this enormous Force Field entered my small room, I had no time for thoughts, I just surrendered and "died on the spot" when.The Force-Field engulfed me. I don't even know, did I have a blackout and for how long, but then I found myself sitting there, back in my room, back in my body & I asked:"What is this ?" And the answer was "White Horse".

They called Heroin the "White Horse" in Copenhagen those days. Heroin !!! Had somebody put Heroin in my sugar, was I overdosing ...and now actually dying !!! Total panic !!! I had to get outside to get help, ambulance !!! .... but it seemed like forever till I could actually manage to turn the door handle, my hands were shaking so much. Somehow I then found myself in a cafe in the city, did I run there I don't know. I looked around me, but something had changed, I had changed, everything had changed. But how, what had happened back there ??? I started to walk back. And then I saw, -as though the "veil" had been lifted. The Spiritual Essence The "I am" in everything, it was just too obvious ... and I had a Horse as a go-between !!! Joy of joys !

The Horse was my guide, my teacher and having died I had no other life but "be on duty" 24/7 The Horse would tell me where and when to go, whom to talk to f.e.x. And when meeting someone like this, I would voluntarily shift ... go into this "mini-trance" ... and then The "Spirit", The Horse would point something out about the situation or of the person. Then I would come out of the mini-trance and open up to the "Horse" to come through .... like voluntarily going into another mini-trance, saying things I really didn't know like "who said them".... but people would wonder how I could possibly have known "all this about their past", or whatever ... But I didn't know, I didn't have a clue, so in a way ... I was just like a witness, a portal, a bystander .... in these like orchestrated, "Spirit arranged" situations ....knowing nothing, but just acting on the cues "Spirit" gave me ...to play my part ... that always hit the bullseye in real life, being at the right time, at the right place, where things needed for the situation would materialize like on cue ..... In this way shamanism has often been likened to mental illness, "arctic hysteria" and schizophrenia, but with one crucial difference.

Red Dragon, you asked about the "re-arrangement" .... Yes, it was like upside-down with a twist. It was also as if I was "dancing up a dream", which manifested as reality, kind of what we do anyway, but just do not realize it.

But to this Dragon problem. Curious thing Red Dragon, is that you said that this asatru seid (shaman) from Denmark had the same experience and problem. Denmark, not Copenhagen by any chance ? Why I am saying this is, that well .... when Buddhism arrived to Tibet, the early school was very shamanic ... and they buried these treasures for future generations, of which some have been earthed .... One of those old treasures was brought to Denmark, where I think it is kept in the main library building .... (?) In those old shamanic times they concentrated energies on objects, turning them into objects of power. After wards I just sometimes wondered if .... I had come to it's "portal" and started "dreaming it into reality ???

And what I meant, by shamanism being my heritage, that as Karelian I belong to the Siberian/Finno-Ugric culture ... So once I started to learn about it ... I realized just where my symbolism ... thunderbirds, white horses, and stuff like "past life memories" had come from, and why my "reality-orientation" is "collective-conscious-center-pole" oriented ...

Arctic

Hi Red Dragon,

Not familiar with Asatru, nor Prose Edda.

The World Tree, The World Pole is my only frame of reference.

Arctic

Ooops, almost forgot:
The Sacred Fire in the middle of sauna-kota (a tipi-like tent).