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First let me thank you both for sharing, hopefully others will too it's a viable topic especially in these times of change IMHO. I know school's out and people are busy during the summer so it may take a bit but I think others will have things to add as well. I've been going through manifesting change for awhile now myself and I'm just absolutely loving it. I find the synchronicity of people and events coming together simply fascinating.

Owl, I wanted to address your comments and recognize that I'm aware of how you've struggled with this for years, you're frustrations with what you've been shown and told would manifest still pending and not yet tangible are difficult for you. I realize that. Sometimes it's simply a blockage we put up that needs to come down by believing we can instead of thinking we can't, we've talked about that so much in the past where you're concerned. I don't think that's the issue in your case, more that it may just come when the time is right.

I know you want to go back to Europe very badly, and still believe that when the time is right for that it will happen too. Sometimes our idea of timing is different than that of the Universe though and regardless of when we think things should happen they come about in their own way. I've seen manifestations develop almost instantly and others take decades to come to pass. Divine timing is at play when that delayed timing happens and it always seems to play out in a perfection all it's own.

I've known for the past 10 years or more that my pathwork would be expanding, that it would change and I've had clues all along as to what that would be like and I watched and watched for it to come. It didn't, I had to be made ready first and that was some process! But in that process I began understanding why these things needed to wait and why I needed to change in the manners I did...it was all for the better. Today it's happening, and I can say 'finally!' however it's 'happening' which means it is only beginning to manifest and there's a lot of work to be done yet. It's just formualting the path with doors ajar along the way that I'm not certain I want to detour into or not yet, I'll deal with them when I get to them and decide then. At the moment my nose needs to stay focused on the moment at hand and what I can do today, the step I can take today to get me closer to where I'm heading. I think you are doing the same thing in your own way whether it's one decade or more at this point is irrelevant, what mattes is that you not only want to go back but believe you will go back to Europe. Do not let go of that. It's the seed that will sprout for you when the germination toward Germany (sorry for the pun) is complete. Hang in there, my friend.

DH, I am glad the question helped you with processing your experience and can totally relate to what you've shared. In the first conscious experience we have with a major manifestation there is a lot of drama to it but that drama is all around us every day too if we have the eyes to see. Little miracles and large ones are everywhere. We're just more highly aware of it when we're co-creating with intent. Then things seem magnified or more pronounced, the synchronicities and irony stand out much stronger so we do take the right steps or embrace the right opportunities. It is a definite learning experience and once we have that pattern down and understood it does get easier to work with.

I love the process itself and it has taught me patience, the ability to embrace the challenges seeing them as times of learning be that to trust in the Universe to do its part or in myself to do mine...sometimes trusting in others when one can't do something for themselves. That's always been my greatest challenge, I don't like to ask for help and would rather do things myself if I can. I also have needed the lessons that allow me to be humbled now and then and learned to see them as reminders that I'm not capbable of everything on my own too. It is about the DreamWeave, keeping it alive in our hearts until we can bring it through to manifest it. And it's about timing that manifestation to when we are truly ready, not just because we want it to be real but because we're able to handle the responsibilities that go with it. We are the caretakers of those Dreams too, they're not just self-sustaining entities, they need TLC to thrive. And sometimes we are needed elsewhere for a time first.

Keeping the Dream alive, believing in our Self, that's another important aspect isn't it? Yes, and trusting the connection with the Universe is key, what we need is brought to fruition, what we want is up to us. There is a difference and we need to learn to recognize that. It is a co-operative process though it takes the Universe and us to make it happen. You mentioned that you learned not to try to tell the Universe exactly how you want something achieved. I have to chuckle, my girlfriend always says "If you want to make Spirit laugh tell him your plans." She's right! It's true, the human mind can't conceive all the possibilities the Universe has at its disposal. I've witnessed some pretty amazing things over the years to know that's true. And you're right, if we think we know the only way we're in for some lessons.

The only ritual I do is to call the Seven Sacred Directions Within and seed, through my thoughts, the things I desire in my life in that stillness Within.

And that's all it takes, everything you need is within you or will be provided to you then.

But I also learnt how the Universe may need to bring other actions forward for others before that which is coming forward for us can come into manifestation: I learnt how our energies are intertwined in the bigger picture.

Which is a very valuable lesson. The orchestration of the Universe is done so divinely that all involved will benefit as they need to. That's putting a whole new twist on precision.

I seemed to have a magickal touch: whatever I desired seemed to come forward. I realise now that I trusted back then. It never occurred to me back then that I could not achieve whatever I wanted to achieve in my life.

Yes, believing is important, doubt dismisses the belief. "Whatever the mind of man can conceive, and believe, it can achieve" is an old saying. And Jesus is quoted as saying: "These things I do you can do also....if you but believe." And he was talking about belief so small as a mustard seed. When I was a little girl my grandmother gave me a mustard seed necklace for that very reason.

It was at that point I stopped having dreams: stopped looking forward and it took me fourteen years, till early in 08, to learn how to dream again. The first seven years were truly dreadful. I had built up the energy for my dream, but once achieved I had failed to transmute that energy into a new dream and it had turned and was biting it's own tail and a series of events played out that were not to my taste!

Yes, even our Dreams need to evolve. Good points raised.

Then about seven years into that Journey, I found SL and the long haul back to learning to dream again began, but when I first arrived here my confidence and belief in myself (I was not even aware I had a Self back then!) and my trust was pretty much shattered. I see now that a lot of the people in my life over the last seven/eight years had also failed to look forward and create Dreams: and, like me, were aimlessly drifting in the Sea of Life rather than swimming in it.

Nods. We all come to this realization when we're ready. I'm glad you found your way through the Lodge door!

I still don't know exactly what changed in me as I looked out on the desert the day I made a trip from Dubai to Oman, but I saw the baron desert with a whole new set of eyes that day.

I would venture to say Mother and your own Self changed you. You went there to 'See' and you Saw. You went to Feel and you Felt. You went to Understand and Understood. That's the magic.

I realised that if we don't have Dreams that move us beyond the petty ugliness of our day to day fears, we are in effect building castles in the sand. Just I had done in the preceeding seven years.

You found a Truth you could honor--a Universal Truth.

I now see the desert represents the blank canvas in which we plant our Dreams: without those dreams we do fall prey to our fears. But I also realise that what we Dream is important too and how we dream. If we try to go from A to Z in one step we fall: because at the end of the day, that's what I tried to do in going to the UAE in the first place: I tried to do something in a year that needs quite a few years to accomplish: we need those stepping stones and we need to hold our Dreams despite the storms on the horizon.

Well said.

I learnt not to become fixed in how my Dreams are to be accomplished but to bend with the winds that come my way and be ready to adapt the path to my Dreams in any moment. This requires that we keep one eye on the desert we are planting and one eye on the means we are using to plant the desert: the Dream itself and the Dreaming process: the feminine receptive energies that are the vessel of the Dream and the masculine active energies that create the Dream: the Unseen and Seen worlds: and only when we can hold both in our consciousness can we Live our Dreams.

True.

What challenges am I encountering? The main challenges come from those who are still sleeping. Those who presented mirrors to me over the last seven years particularly: those who are still kicking and screaming trying to force their Dreams out of fear rather than creating their Dreams in the peace and tranquillity Within.

Okay, and so what about 'their' kicking and screaming is the challenge to you? Is that not 'their' challenge to stop and pay attention while you walk in your tranquility to accomplish what you are co-creating? I don't see that as 'your' issue other than to walk on knowing, and understanding, why it is necessary. That seems to me to be more an affirmation than a challenge---unless you see their crossing your path as a testing of your own convictions?

My Wolf has been around a lot lately and he smiles as one by one various people who have been a part of my life over the last seven years, but whom I had lost or broken contact with over the last twelve months or so, have come back into my life, usually only for very short periods: a single phone call or the like.

And what lesson is the Great Teacher teaching you with a smile? (Mine came to me last week doing the same thing, cracked me up!)

I found this statement to bring a smile to my face, because as we part ways with others those who can walk with us and will be supportive do come into our lives. You stated: "Almost as if a compensation for those who I have had to cut loose from my life, people from the time I did create my own Dreams have been coming back into my life." These would then be those you could walk with because they are going in the same direction you are in their own ways. Beautiful example!

Again, my thanks to you both for sharing.

Hi DH,

Yes, in the awareness of the co-creation process we come to see that we are a part of that Oneness, a part of the pattern of transformation. You're right, it begins within and as that happens our awareness does shift, we see the world around us differently, and our relationships in the world as a result. If we want our external world to change then we have to change our internal world first. Another aspect of that process is going to be emotional shifting as well, and, as you've learned, detachment is necessary at times.

What you're experiencing with your co-worker is likely being experienced on all levels of relationships, even those you are maintaining vs. those you see the need to move beyond. This can be anywhere from family and close friends, to social, business or community acquaintances, we do change our ways of perceiving and they will notice. If they don't have the understanding we're going to hear things like "You've changed" but they can't really say how and it would take too much to explain, so we smile and say nothing knowing we're still us, just different.

The energy you describe feeling within yourself is what I call 'running the energy' or letting it flow through you but remaining unattached to it. If there is something in that energy we need we'll absorb it to use it as part of our creative process otherwise it just flows on. Sometimes that absorption is merely the understanding of the information the energy contains. I'm glad that you can see the bemusement because those who do test us in the manner you describe are mirroring back how far we've come in our lessons and the challenges we faced getting through them. We all kick and scream at times, but they become fewer and farther between as we grow in our recognition of that action and make the adjustments it calls for.

This is why I love the Sacred Directions so much, they teach us about the levels of understanding and thus how to weave the energies. The past, present and future do become the axis for that and depending on what we're learning we can place ourselves on the Medicine Wheel understanding how its patterns flow through our life dances and how we're weaving them or need to rework our weaving.

But Wolf is slso reminding me that just because I have moved on does not mean that these folks have. That never occured to me.

So do you find in that observation a lesson in acceptance of others that leads to tolerance---not only for them but for your Self? I find in that awareness that we come to understand our own emotional state of BE-ing better too, and through that our needs in relationships if we want to maintain our balanced center. It makes it easier when there are times that the roads we walk come to the forkings. Through understanding we are liberated in the sense that we can let go.

Yes, the patterns you once used in creating that Sacred Space in the past have been absorbed making the tool the skill. The potential to 'do' has always been within you. In pagan teachings it is said that if you cannot find what you are seeking within your Self you will never find it externally. Most people equate that to the seeking of the connection to a God or Goddess but it goes beyond that to anything we're looking for. In the co-creative process there is a lot of internalized focus because we have to manifest from within ourselves summoning that awareness and then running the energy up and into action so we can BE-come it.

As much as we focus on that the Universe responds externally to what we're doing to assist us. The internal and external Universes are mirrors too and respond to each other accordingly--just as in relationships the two worlds--internal and external--are a part of the whole of the co-creation process. There are many sorts of relationships within life that we need to understand this way. I like the points you made here:

Worrying is a focus on future displeasure and dis-ease and from various learnings I have come across, we should cultivate feelings of pleasure and ease. This focus on pleasure and ease was one of the things I did that helped me get through my last days in the UAE (by going to the beach for instance!). In Kabbalah it is this focus that helps us gain insights: the pleasure gained as we immerse ourselves in the subject matter assists us move beyond our sense of self and our surroundings (as we do in meditation for instance) and through this our mind is open to receive insights (ie light-bulb moments) from Universal Consciousness (or Source as it is known in Kabbalah). Why would we choose to associate ourselves with those whose focus is displeasure and dis-ease? The challenge is to not allow these folks to influence us. It's just something i was made aware of through this Summer "experience" quarter!

And now that you have the understanding of that pattern it's simple to weave with it isn't it? The weaving becomes a labor of love, it may take serious effort to achive but when we act by loving the actions it is much easier. Experience leads to that understanding where we can see how we have the option to choose how we will experience things in the future. Therein enters the wisdom of learning when it is appropriate to make those choices in a right manner and how to go about it.

One thing I learned about the parting of relationships is that it's not always a permanent thing, though sometimes it will be and that's okay, it's okay either way. All paths deserve acceptance and there are times, as others come to their lessons, we often find our paths crossing again and we can walk together once more. We're not the ones to always teach the lessons just because we've had them ourselves. Sometimes we're asked to do so but the key is in the asking. I say that a lot but it's true. If we're not asked to help we need to tend to our own lessons and get on with our own business instead of worrying about what everyone else is doing. That does not have to be painful and we can avoid the pain when we understand why it is that way (administering it in our own kicking and screaming or receiving it through the kicking and screaming of others). You can try to explain that to someone but unless they've had such a lesson themselves they can take in only the theory, not the understanding that goes deeper along with it. That's where we find the tolerance to understand they need more experience before that can happen and they're heading into it. Then we can step aside blessing their journey.

There is such a difference when we walk in the awareness of our lessons isn't there? And your lesson has been about the creative ability within you to manifest as well as relationships. All lessons have themes that run through them and those themes will be relative to our needs. So what would you say the key ingredients are to the manifestation process for you? Focus, belief, understanding, trust, anything else? What about when we are being challenged, when doors are closing or slamming in our faces? It's not what the world around us is doing to us, or what others are doing to us, it's what we're doing to ourselves isn't it?

I think we have to see if we are looking to co-create with the help of guidance or trying to bulldoze our way through our goals not looking at what our actions are doing to others. As we give we receive so if we're not paying attention to what we're doing (giving) then we're not likely going to see or understand the obstacles or challenges until we run headlong into them. Manifestation does begin with-IN as we learn to connect with our Self. Each of us exists as a part of a much greater whole, the Great Mystery that beckons to all of us to be explored and co-creation is a part of that exploration.

Once we recognize we are all sisters and brothers we come to see we are the divine children of the Great Ones and each of us are precious in their eyes, precious and deeply loved. That 'Divine Child' is conceived as the spirit that resides within us; a spirit that knows its path and purpose for taking a co-creative earthwalk...a spirit that is entitled, by divine right, to the bounty of life. We each have the ability to manifest abundance in our lives, to co-create our DreamWeave, but we have to conceive of that ability, believe in it, and then connect with our Self linked to the creative powers of the Universe to bring forth that ability. In doing so it means we have to balance our masculine and feminine nature to properly manifest. There's a rhythm to it, wouldn't you say?

(((Owl)))

I totally understand. My own pathwork has felt much the same to me. I'm turning 62 soon and it's taken a long time to get where I need to be--at the start of that 'real' work. I can relate to the long wait, my friend. One thing I'd like to suggest to you when you focus on Germany and where you need to be, is to close your eyes and go back in memory to all that you can recall there. Trace your roots, not only in the physical sense of family and locations but to the land itself. Hold that connection and you're there in spirit. Once there in spirit in a tangible form the physical follows. Do give that a try, otherwise I think you're doing all you can and patience is part of that process. It happens when we're ready for it to happen. In the meantime do remember that you've gathered (through the internet) many friends who love you deeply. Friends from all over the world and you do touch their lives in the most loving ways. *Hoot!*

I'd like to share some thoughts with you about the process of manifestation if you don't mind, old friend. The first thought is around the sacred trinity. I believe it is so important to recognize that it is through the connection of Self or your spirit to Spirit and Mother that we create the Sacred Trinity: Mother, Father and Divine Child. In that trinity we link ourselves to the Powers That Be within the Oneness of the Universe. Those powers are able to flow within you too, for as above so below, and as without so within, and by going within you will come to find your own true power to co-create. By making that connection your inner power to be a co-creator can be applied to manifesting your DreamWeave (what you've been shown would come to pass) in the world of form or physical reality.

It's true! Can you believe it is that simple? You were born with everything you need in one neat little package, you just have to dig around inside and see what's there. If you have abilities that serve others you simply need to give yourself permission to use them to serve your needs too. Everything you need you brought with you into life through your spirit, into the world of form. The Self is the starting point wherein everything else falls into place and your path to success and achieving your goals in life will begin to unfold beautifully from there. Learning how to take that inner journey is important. You can do this, successful manifestation happens all the time---each and every day, day in and day out for those who tap into the co-creative process to bring forth the abundance in their lives. It's all about the believing---believing in the power of the spirit within you vs. the power of the human you, and that belief begins inside each and every one of us.

We all ask the same questions initially: When? How long does it take? And the answer is simply that what is beyond you must be intended to come into BE-ing. You need to expect it to manifest or arrive 'when it is needed or when the time is right' and that will be at a time when it will be accepted in gratitude. You don't have to feel a need to rush things. Patience sets you free to focus on your actions today, on your co-creative abilities and the progress of the process unfolds from there. By trusting that the Universe will respond to your thoughts and feelings bringing you what or who you need to assist you 'when needed at the right time' you will come to see that in divine timing things do not appear a moment too soon, nor a moment too late. They appear in synchronized fashion and seem to manifest instantly then---amost out of thin air!

The Universe is going to respond to you and depending on what is being brought into being it will come anywhere from today to weeks from now, from months or even years down the road. (As you're finding out.) Because of this focus is important, focus maintains your part in the co-creative process. Ask what you are projecting into it? Is it positive energy or are you dwelling on negative surroundings more? Co-creation is filled with unlimited potential and the same limitless potential resides within you when you are in harmony with All That Is/The Powers That Be. The more you learn about your own abilities the greater the potential you hold for manifesting your will. The more you learn about your spiritual path (and you have a clear understanding of yours!) the greater potential for you to stay focused and achieve your goals. The spiritual path and the mundane path are one, see both sides, and don't feel you're out of time or it's too late. It's never too late and you will be granted the time you need to accomplish what you came to do. The unlimited potential you See with-IN your Self is the true you---your creative source and link to the Oneness of the Universe.

It's true, all answers reside there for it is with-IN us that we tap into the collective consciousness, guidance and enlightenments we seek. It is through you that the Universe channels the energy needed to manifest your reality and in that sense it co-creates with you. You can run the energy of the Universe through your Self (just as you do when you send Healing out to others, Owl) and back out into the world around you. Give it permission to follow it's nature to manifest what you need. Tell it what you need but not how to go about it. We are limited by our perceptions in 'how' things can happen where the Universe and elemental energy at play within it are not.

You believe in your gifts in serving others, why not in serving yourself? It's so important to extend to ourselves too. It's also going to mean that you need to develop self love, an honoring of the Self to BE your Self and intend your DreamWeave. Only through that experience will you be able to truly understand the gift the power within you holds. In this way believing in your ability to co-create develops so beautifully. There is nothing your heart desires that is not available to you you. Remember you are the Divine Child, the spirit and life force within you that is. That DreamWeave so deeply seeded in your heart is there for a reason.

So often we ask what these seeds look like? The answer is simple: What do we love most? What would make you happiest? What brings you the greatest joy? Where are your talents that will tend these abilities? What can you do that will put them to use? Where are your talents and do you use them for your Self too? What brings you the deepest sense of peace? The most fulfillment? Why not manifest it through thought, intent and action with your natural talents and hold the positive, not just the possiblitiy but the belief that you c-a-n manifest and w-i-l-l manifest?

It takes our efforts along with the Universe, co-operative effort. It's not enough to just want things to happen. We have to do whatever is within our power to help things along and it begins a day at a time a step at a time. You've always done that Owl, always. However doubt, fear or lack of Self-confidence can have us running like a hampster on a wheel getting nowhere. Get rid of the focus on the misery you feel and embrace the joy of what is to be instead. Live in that joy, love the manifestation and feed it with heart and it makes a huge difference.

I'm just sharing thoughts, it's what I've had to learn to do and I'm sure DH (as well as others here) would tell you the same. Both of us have seen it working in our lives and I know if we can do it you can too, my friend.

Chaos certainly is the door or one of them anyway, it's definitely an initiator. I sat reading what you had to share Earthwalker, and smiled. I love the irony of how things happen, we can't always plan the way it will unfold, but we can trust our processes as you're doing. I followed a vision I was given for over 30 years before it manifested but I knew the whole time that it would and I knew then it would take time. I've had others that seemed to happen very quickly, some almost instantly, within days, and others within a few weeks or months. There I see Divine Timing at play and it usually takes a little longer when others are involved, the orchestration then isn't just us, it's their lives too.

I'd say you're manifesting and co-creating with your daughter and with the universe. The "how" suddenly presenting itself or beginning to. It may not unfold as you expected it should but it will unfold in an equally or even better manner. The irony of that always holds me in awe. The manifestation I mentioned that took from '69 to 2000 to come about came in a manner I never dreamed it would at a time I didn't think it could happen so we just never know. When the time is right it appears. It seems for instance that you have the help you've needed to fix up the house you want to sell, a place to stay while you wait to build, and the land you have come to love waiting to receive the cabin in the spring--what ideal timing to start something new for yourself! The issues may shift with the insurance and they may not, as could the employment situation should you choose to work before going into full retirement. But whatever plays out for you, Earthwalker, it is coming into being, you're doing more than simply standing in a quiet place, you're doing what you can to bring it about too. If you didn't fix the house to sell it then you might not get full value for it so now you're insuring that for yourself. Perhaps the market will come back a bit more by the time you're ready and funds will be there for what is needed at that time. It's hard to say.

I think it's so important for us not to get caught up in the "how" but to be willing to do what we can and go with the shifts that come our way. Your attitude and efforts demonstrate that and this will come to pass beautifully I'm sure. You've had a year of challenges to be sure, the whole family has, but your also heading into something beautiful that you have wanted for a very long time, a smaller footprint and a peaceful setting to place it. You felt the need to begin working on your home and you listened, you acted and look at the timing there alone. The opportunity to see some positive changes at work also presented itself to you before you leave, that's a good thing and your time there is now over, you did an awful lot to keep harmony in place there aside from your contributions to the company, you contributed to the quality of the workforce. I'm happy that you were able to see things change for the better.

Your solstice journey put you on notice and things began to change. That's how it happens. I want to say congratulations to you, no "Oh I'm sorry" here. I think this is a blessing that is going to be of great benefit to you and that your co-creative process is indeed underway. It is a time of transition and maybe that's all the vision you were given was meant to convey, the old caveman (old boss? or perhaps the company itself?) undergoing change brought change to you too...and to others. Yes, we can have compassion for those facing sudden change but there is a means to bridge the way financially until you can find your sense of direction with matters. I think it's both, our place here on earth and in the larger scope of the universe that matters, that's what allows the co-creative energy to give way to form.

I can could choose to stand in anger or compassion for so many others younger than myself that are having their lives disrupted. I can stand in bewilderment and sadness of the what was to be that can no longer be. Alternatively, I can choose to stand in exitement of a new future even while acknowledging that I don't know completely what it will be. I stand in choice right now and have accepted to move on. i recognize the gift I have been given even while indicating "there will be no cake".

It is about choice in how we respond to our changing circumstances. I like the perspectives you looked at and the ones you chose. The gift of oneness does abound and the day seems to have given you the glimmers of hope in those stalks of shimmering grain. Watch now as the right buyer for you home comes along when you are ready to sell and the rest flows into being for you. As you stand in the Oneness with it all you become party to the manifesting too, going with the flow of the energy. There will be inspiration and guidance to steer you along, there always is, we just need to remember to keep our eyes open for it and you're good at that. You're good at seeing the optimistic perspectives and holding to them too. That's healthy thinking as opposed to holding to our fears and letting them hold us back. Manifestation calls for us to reach beyond them or stagnate. You're right, it is rather fun to push off the shore into the unknown, the landscapes are so inviting aren't they? You will create beauty on your path because you walk in it yourself, my friend.

As I ponder the question of co-creation for myself, I wonder further if it the end that we are co creating or if its the journey of being that we are creating. Do we need an end or are "goals" products of the culture we live in? I admit though I love the journey even in chaos. Isn't chaos the door.

I'd say when we manifest our co-creations for ourselves we are manifesting the journey for each time our life changes we initiate to a new beginning and there's always more to do. It's not the end, it's the start of something new, unknown, exciting and beautiful. Enjoy that journey! Congratulations. It feels so good and I'm happy for you. There are sure to be challenges along the way but I think you'll meet them nose to nose and overcome whatever they may be. You have that knack about you. I hope Michael is doing well now.

Hi DH,

No problem, we all get busy. I do hope you're able to rekindle your contacts within the construction arena, it sounds like you're about to embark on a faster paced road to progress for yourself, manifestation time around the corner. As for the reminders, once we start to see we need to keep walking we do get a few initial reminders but after a pop quiz or two that's no longer necessary. The conditioning sets in rather quickly and we walk in that awareness.

As for the acceptance, it wasn't in the decision to walk away that came for me, it was there before that with the understanding of the situation. It was the acceptance that allowed me to make the decision to walk on. Tolerance does have different facets but I believe it comes down to one: the perspective we have through the understanding we have gained. In your example of an abused woman forgiving, of course the decision to step out of that abuse is not going to bring instant forgiveness, that takes time to work through. But in most cases, when we decide to leave a relationship we've been processing already. Having been abused I understand that aspect of dealing with it. We might say to ourselves: 'If this happens one more time I'm out of here.' and then go, but our perspective on how we get to the forgiveness may take longer. Even friendships can get abusive and controlling when we run into jealousy or other negative motivators, we need to process to come to our decisions to leave them, but in that processing we gain our understanding based on the experiences of the situation. Once we walk we tend not to look back other than as a reminder to share as part of our story if we're helping someone else through a similar situation or as a reminder for ourselves when we meet someone else with a similar energy signature. We start recognizing who is a positive companion and who is not. Healing tends, in many cases anyway, to come after the departure, though there can be times where the departure itself is the act of healing, in either case it definitely initiates the process.

As for your checking to see you're not working the same energy, yes, I agree, for me that's an automatic because I look to see if it is 'my problem' first. If it's not then the release is instant for me and I can let go without hesitation. If it is my issue too then I work on me, not them. I know that people won't change unless they see the need within themselves and not because someone tells them they should. least that's been my experience.

I feel the liberation comes in seeing that the projections are not who we are. We are free then to truly co-create without the incumberances of other people's projections cluttering up our energy-field.

I would agree with that where it comes to projections but those are not the only cause for the parting of ways, sometimes it's for other reasons (perhaps they are walking into Shadow Lessons and we're not; perhaps they are undertaking a different course of lessons we don't need or have yet to need; it could be any number of things that cause the separations). The cause of the parting may vary but it always comes down to an unhealthy relationship in one form or another or it's because we need to separate to get where we're going, our directions may sever the relationship for us.

From my experience we have to find that sense of God and Goddess Within before we can move on to the other things we wish to create in our Life: we have to be able to see ourselves as One with those energy.

This is true, however the way I see it is that that's part of the process of spiritual development in the first place. It should (IMHO) be something that is an initial part of one's foundational understanding and training in the first place. This is taught in the Sacred Directions and Wheel as a fundamental awareness through the process of introductory exercises that lead to that experience and thus ability to walk in that manner. You have taken a Kabbalistic approach to that understanding for yourself (a universal that will be found in various traditions so it doesn't matter where we find the knowledge) and that resonates for you so it's a good matrix for you to work with. In that study your experiences in the UAE played out to demonstrate the lessons to you.

You're correct, the feminine is the recepticle for the masculine, but the masculine is not superior to the feminine. (There is a hint of that perspective in what you're expressing if I'm not mistaken.) It isn't that one comes before the other. The two are one in the same, different ends of the same spectrum, one cannot function without the other. It is a 'we' rather than an 'I' in the Creation process and without the other there is nothing. Both are perceived as equally sacred, one receptive/magnetic while the other is assertive/electric in their energetic essences. There is no creation without the union. Keeping this in mind, we can see how during this time of the Change, the two forces are seeking that very state of balance and calling for it within us too. For a time that state of unbalance was perceived in matriarchal societies, then the patriarchal took over and now it is a balance of the two that is coming into being. That is what creates the state of harmony and Oneness within us or externally. Hence, as you see the transition going up and down from the Kabbalic Tree we have the same principle "As Above So Below" in action with pagan teachings and the Native Teachings of Mother Earth and Great Spirit as the axis mundi of the Three Worlds and our realm of form the Middle World where manifestation occurs.

They must connect to manifest and neither is more powerful, neither has come before the other. The Mother is eternal too. It is the product of manifestation, the sacred child (in whatever form that takes) that goes through the life, death and rebirth cycle and yet the core of the manifestation is part of the Mother and Father so the essence/spirit of it retains the ability to be reborn for it is immortal essence manifested. I hope that's making sense and gives you something to chew on. The experience of the unification on the various levels of the Tree that you had are examples of how the universal truths permeate all aspects of life. They exist everywhere. In the barronness of the Oman desert you were experiencing the understanding of the feminine and were then able to nourish it. The masculine can go cold too, and it takes the feminine to warm it, just as it takes the masculine to rehydrate the barren feminine. Without the other both go cold and barren, there is nothing.

Now as for the three women projecting the masculine energies, here the example speaks to me of their learning to create the balance by experience, and they are doing so based on what they know--the examples of the masculine in control factors. This has been common throughout the rise of the feminist movement of women stepping into powerful roles. (On any level). They struggle with the masculine just as men struggle with the feminine. So to see them 'projecting' is to see them experiencing. They may not recognize it as such (yet) but they will and when they do they will achieve the balance they seek. Right now it's awkward for them and they're finding their way through that. If we can understand those who are passing through such experiences we can exercise more tolerance for what they are learning to do and not take their actions or words personally when they become clumsy with it by their projections toward us or others. What is projected is always reflected back again and sooner or later individuals have to see those reflections. It's their timing, ours may be different and that's where discerning our disengagements comes in.

I would agree you were assimilating through the Summer of the Wheel and that it was a demonstration of why you had to walk on. They were not in the same place as you are nor are they heading into the lessons that await you, they're not ready for them -- yet. However, you have the ability and understanding that is now allowing you to employ the Sacred Directions as you look at things. That is something they are as yet lacking. If they had it they would be able to correct themselves. If they were looking to do so they would be open and asking for advice, they're not, they're forcing instead. So your choice to walk on was well discerned, they're not able to hold this information yet and likely won't be until their lessons have been fully experienced...something that could happen at any point or could take a very long time depending on the individual and their needs. With regard to the woman you see as being made redundant in her position by next year it is a strong indication it will take her until then to start processing the assimilation of her lesson that is playing out now. You see?

......that of the masculine and feminine as co-creators and us and Creator as co-creators and the feminine is the Key in both cases.

It is said ....'All things are born of Woman.' So yes, the experiencing of the feminine nature within you is that overture you spoke of, a glimpse of what is to come forward in the future. That feminine awareness rising into your higher consciousness is liberating you to follow your heart. The masculine enters our awareness through awareness of action or form that is taken into the heart; the feminine on the other hand, takes what is in the heart and brings that into form or action. We come from opposite polarities there. I find it intersting that the element of Air being masculine in conceptual thought and the element of Water being feminine in expression of emotion balance each other out on the Blue Road of Spirit (the spirit within us applies); just as the element of Fire is masculine in experience and the element of Earth holds the wisdom of sustenance on the Good Red Road. In the center we have the axis mundi, the center of that balance all the way around. So now you are living and acting with heart to find the joy in your life manifesting itself on a path you can walk with conviction. It feels good doesn't it?! However, these three assertive women you've been speaking of are coming at this from the far end of the spectrum, their experiences are taking an approach that comes from a totally different direction than you took...they're working from the inside out, you worked from the outside in.

I asked about what key ingredients you saw for yourself and you mentioned:

To believe in myself/Self more and not take on board other's projections of who they need to believe I am. We can't co-create if we do not believe in ourselves and I had taken on board just about everyone's negative projections of who I am. That was quite a weight to carry! To release those projections and in some cases send them right back where they came from, I think above all else, has been the liberating thing. To see beyond those projections into my Self/True Nature and to walk in that knowledge. But, like you said, that has taken a great deal of work.

This left me with a smile. One does need to 'choose' to BE their truth, to BE your Self and connect through the Self to Spirit and Mother, not others who would dictate to us. In that connection to our celestial parents we create the sacred trinity and connect in that to the Universe that contains all matter needed to manifest our desires. That journey alone is one of Self discovery and adventure as we come to see what our co-creative abilities are and where they can take us. It is in those experiences we learn to BE-come One with-IN ourselves and from the with-IN we journey back out into the world to experience our co-creative efforts of our DreamWeave. Your reality will now manifest by taking the Dream into form, the reality becomes fertilized by the desire, and you will attract what you project.

I smiled because believing in one's Self is key. As my grandmother used to remind me of Christ's words: "These things I do you can do also if you but 'belive'." and she would remind me that the belief need only be as tiny as a mustard seed. In fact she gave me a mustard seed necklace as a reminder and I loved it! That seed or those seeds of faith that we gather with-IN ourselves are up to us to nurture them so they grow...feminine nurturing. Believing in your own potential is nurturing them. The soil they are germinating in is in your heart and they are nurtured further by your thoughts and focus. What brings you the greatest joys brings that same joy into the world around you. Knowing what you love, what makes you happy, will make others happy and you'll attract like-minded and like-natured individuals into your life as companions and associates. You'll attract those energies from the Universe and it will provide everything you cannot, it will match you step for step in that co-production co-operating because that's what it's designed to do.

It's a lot like the analogy of driving a car. We have to put gas in the tank in order for the engine to run (heart). We have to turn on the ignition (concept) in order for the car to go. We have to steer (focus) it on the road in order to stay on that route and get to our destination (manifestation). We have to intend to get where we want to go (believe we can get there) and co-operate with that vehicle (the Universe). It has the horsepower to get us there, it has the wheels (opportunities in place) that turn to cover the distances we need to travel, the body that protects us as we move along (our human body). We're no different than that car, our body is the vehicle through which the spirit within us co-operates too. And the Universe is the vehicle to manifestation, blessings, abundances, miracles, to all that is potentially possible for it is the body of the union of Spirit and Mother. If we don't put gas in the tank (positive thinking and believing in ourselves) or turn on the ignition (following our convictions and believing) then we end up getting nowhere.

Well this reply looks like one of our emails, DH. Good conversations though!

Hi Crow,

Actually I disagree. I don't think effort brings about co-creation. From a personal viewpoint - effort has never worked for me. That's been not only a personal lesson, but a family one as well - the harder I/we try the less we get anywhere.

Fair enough, I'm not trying to negate your experiences at all and hope I'm not coming across as such. This may just be our interpretation of what effort means-semantics? In my experiences with co-creation over the years effort has been called for just as often as not. Naturally it depends on the circumstances I'm facing, but if challenged I've certainly had to put effort into pushing through them when I'd rather not deal with them in the first place. Sometimes those challenges have been from external forces (people or situations) and sometimes they are my own (fears) extending myself into new comfort zones, or stretching myself wondering if I could manage that. Progress wouldn't have happened if I'd just sat there doing nothing or waited to let it happen on its own in those cases.

In others instances things do appear to just happen but in my perspective there's no true co-creation without action on our parts too. That said, at the very least (again IMHO) there needs to be an intended effort to achieve whatever it is we're creating---the effort being the initiating act of 'doing' itself. Once that effort is put into action and the first step or steps have been taken things do take on more fluidity and balance comes into play. For someone observing the actions it may appear effortless, but the initiating factor often takes at the very least the effort to embrace the inspiration or the conception when it breaks from the norm. Such effort comes from the internal fortitude one holds. There have been countless times it took effort to hold faith with the path I was walking regardless of my knowing it was right to do so. Perhaps we could call these challenging circumstances tests of faith, and the effort to hang onto it when everything around the situation seems to thwart our passage?

There have been creative moves I've made in life, some that were very easy choices and highly successful. And there have been others that take a lot of dedication to get through them because the ability to keep going was exhausting or exasperating. I've stood in the face of holding my ground about my choices when others (those I cared very deeply about and even strangers) felt that the course I was taking was wrong and based on ill-made decisions. I had to put a great deal of effort into holding to my own convictions when shoved off track by something unexpected. The acts themselves were effortless in the construct but effort was called for in overcoming obstacles that challenged me---challenges that often hit when I was at a point of energy exhaustion already.

There have been times I faced wherein others tried to sabotage the work I was doing and strove to undermine the success or progress I was to achieve. Great effort was called for to keep going when it would have been much easier to just give up and do something else. So I'm not saying your perspectives are wrong….but I can't dismiss employing effort at times either. If I don't make the effort then the creation doesn't come about. Effort to me is the stride taken whether it's challenging or easy. I guess in this sense of effort I'm talking about holding to the will and the intent behind it. There have certainly been times where I've surrendered to Spirit and said, "Okay, Spirit, you've shown me this would take place. You make it happen." as well. In many of those instances things did happen-co-incidence or synchronicity that was perfectly orchestrated by hands other than my own. I still had to embrace the opportunities that came with Divine timing and sometimes that took effort in fortitude to do so too. Sometimes the choice to change itself is an effort put forth.

I do realise my personal belief system is based on a most unorthodox version of Christianity and not shamanic, but to me the concept of walking on water says it all... you don't think, you don't visualise, you don't put in any effort. You just get out the boat and walk.

I can see what you're saying here and would agree from that perspective. But what if you'd never done it before? Wouldn't it take effort to find the courage to even try in some cases? We don't always have our act together when times of change arrive. And walking on water would be an act of faith, one that IMHO would call for effort to hold too it -- especially if that water were over one's head and you didn't know how to swim.

Well actually I was implying any kind of surrender. I once did surrender in the "I give up" painful despair way and it still brought amazing manifestations of what I needed. Which is why I do believing in drawing to rather than pushing towards. I have managed to manifest amazing change during times of great emotional pain, but only because at the very core my heart never let go of that longing, but it still works for me, regardless of my emotional state.

Nods. There are many forms of surrender and I've had experiences such as you describe too. However I know that my own emotions if let to run rampant can just as easily be self-defeating. It's great that this works for you in manifesting, and I too believe in drawing rather than pushing. I just believe that it takes effort to draw sometimes.

But isn't that in itself presumptuous? Why does spirituality have to be a side? If everything in life is a potential spiritual lesson than any path, even one that seems completely unaware of the spiritual, is still a spiritual path.

No, not necessarily, I don't think it is. I believe that the spiritual needs acknowledgment, afterall, we're co-creating with that side of life and dwelling within a world of form we don't always heed that aspect. Yes, definitely it's a part of the Oneness, but in recognizing that part we add more clarity to the process itself IMHO. Aware or not things can and do happen, I don't deny that, though in my eyes that's leaving things to chance. If we're consciously aware of the Oneness they happen in such magical ways. To me the spiritual awareness is allowing me to become more deeply involved in the creative aspects. Our awareness is heightened then and we're less likely to overlook opportunities or connections we need to make. Awareness allows us to see the unseen hands at play rather than to ignore them.

When I've ignored the spiritual insights the struggle to progress has usually been greater. A good example of that is guidance coming through and pointing the way but I didn't like the path I was directed to or something about what I was being shown. Headstrong, I went about things in another manner (at times rather defiantly ) and more often than not, while I may have achieved success, I achieved it the hard way. In essence I thwarted my own efforts in self-sabotaging actions that called for much more effort on my part. When I worked in conjunction with the spiritual insights I'd been shown things flowed.

Nature, which the shamanic path holds up as a lesson in spirituality, neither prays nor meditates. Animals have no concept of either idea and yet they fit better into the harmony of the Creator's mind then we do. Why? Because they allow. They live for today in trust. The rabbit doesn't sit thinking that tomorrow he might be eaten by a predator. He'd never leave his burrow and starve to death. The eagle letting go of the cliff top and falling into the air doesn't pray for flight, he merely accepts Creator's gift of flight... and flies.

*Soft smile* I can see where you're coming from, but in my perspective Nature is prayer, it is meditation, it is through Nature that we connect to the Oneness. I see it as the transparent body of life formed in all its rhythms and moods and the face of Great Mystery. To see that face is to see the Oneness and become One with it.

Actually I was the one who said "No prayers" below the quote from Crabby. So there was no presumption there.

My mistake, I apologize.

I don't particularly like prayer. That stems from my early childhood foundation on the Bible and the fact Jesus viewed prayer as irrelevant and a waste of effort. Later I went on to a religious school where prayer was constant and I discovered the whiney side to prayer - the nagging side. I am all for conversations with God/Goddess/Great Spirit, but I'm not keen on prayer. I only use the term (in places like the prayer forum) because it is easier to tell people I'm sending prayers than explain my personal spiritual viewpoint.

Nods. I understand and I've seen that whiny side too. For me prayer is a sacred conversation with Spirit or Mother or whatever being I may be calling out to. It is a sacred matter within my heart. If I don't feel the truth in what I'm addressing then it is empty and as Jesus said, irrelevant. The intent and integrity behind it matter, and in the shamanic as well as Medicine teachings I've received prayer is held in this light. When employed the heart is speaking IMHO. I would venture that Jesus was not addressing all prayer for Jesus himself did pray. I believe what he was referring to was prayer by rote...someone reciting 10 Hail Marys without intent behind them but saying them to get through them as pennance, to get it over with, would be irrelevant---the prayer would be insincere then. As I mentioned, in all the teachings and experiences I've had around prayer itselt it needs to be heartfelt. *Soft smile*.

I can't say I feel depressed about the issue, more resigned. I am proud of myself in that I took a stand and said, "No." I've now said no to a person who thinks he/she is (leaving out gender for legal reasons) above that kind of thing. They think the fact that they are in another country on another continent means I can't reach that far. They are for a nasty shock and, quite frankly, it's a lesson they are badly in need of.

Yes, and I'm sure it was challenging to make the decision to walk a path you'd rather not walk, passing through an experience you weren't looking for in the first place. It's usually not a pleasant thing to have to go into legal battles let alone on an international level. I have to wonder if you see this experience as effortless on your part? How would you describe it? (I'm not trying to be edgy about the question, Crow, just curious.)

I am sorry it came to this, because it will cost me money, but I'm aware that I've been given a gift in this situation. The first gift was that the stress when this started threw my blood pressure up and I was forced to take time out from the internet for a whole week. It gave me time to relax and rest, something I'd been denying myself lately, being so busy with so many projects and things.

Nods. I know that gift, I had it myself this week being taken down with the flu and that was triggered by stresses too. Then when the symptoms passed quickly I pushed myself again and relapsed not having restored my energy levels appropriately---I dove right back into the stressful matters as they were pressing at me. With the relapse I saw what I'd done and took the time needed to recharge myself. Ha! (I can be my own worst enemy at times.)

The second gift was that it gave me the chance to be calm yet assertive and to stand my grounds. I think women have a natural tendency to back down too much. We fear being assertive might mean being less feminine, or less "nice". We forget that in Nature female animals are often more fierce than the males, especially when it comes to being protective and being providers. I needed reminding of the warrior woman aspect of the female experience. A chance to learn how to honour the fact that Bravery in the battle is as much a feminine trait as masculine.

Yes that was a gift. And your comments about the feminine here are so true. Interestingly enough, I was reading over my journal yesterday through a portion dealing with the many faces of the Sacred Feminine I had experienced. In that I'd named them as: child, virgin, seductress, mother, warrioress, seeress, wise woman and the traits for each addressed as being: playful, innocent, creative, nurturing, protective, perceptive, and knowing. As a woman we hold those traits and can employ them as needed.

You're right, a woman brought to her feet to take a stand is a fierce warrioress when she takes herself inot any battle: "Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned." The Truth we see is what makes us bravely take up arms-or legal counsel as the case may be. May your battle be swift and effective, Crow. I don't like legal battles at all, they can get so drawn out and we end up expending so much energy into them. I have to wonder when contacted by your attorney if the individual won't just wake up and yield rather than go to court? I do hope so, they know what they've done and it seems foolish to me to fight that. Perhaps thinking they are untouchable or invincible and finding out they're not will be enough to shatter their illusion. Wouldn't that be nice?! I've seen it happen before. I hope too that it's not a costly matter for you. (((Hugs)))